Sunday, February 20, 2011, 2/20/2011 06:22:00 PM
OMGOMGOMG
I HAVEN'T BEEN HERE LIKE, FOREVER!!!AWWW, I'M SORRY MEH DIARY. WELL I'M HERE NOW SO YEAH! XD
LIFE'S BEEN GREAT I GUESS
GOING TO WATCH I AM NUMBER FOUR AND SUCKER PUNCH REAL SOON!!! HEART AND KISSES!
XOXOXO
THIS IS 'FOR YOU AND YOUR DENIAL' BY YELLOWCARD, AWESOME RIGHT? OUT MARCH 22!
AND THIS IS SUCKER PUNCH!!!! HEARTHEARTHEARTHEART!!!! XDXDXDXDXD
OUT TA HERE
Thursday, March 18, 2010, 3/18/2010 01:27:00 PM
:) HOLS BABEH!
OMG!!!!! IT'S THE HOLIDAYS PEOPLE!!!!! XDDDDD HAHAHAHAHAH!!!! FINALLY!
I just LOVE days I can just do whatever I want, sleep in and just rock out in my room with crazy loud tunes that might blow up the neighbours cars. HAHAH. I'd like to see THAT XDDD
I FEEL SO HYPER. IT'S SO WEIRD RIGHT? I JUST HAD THIS MATHS EXAM AT SCHOOL I MEAN, I EVEN SLEPT AND EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT ME. AHAHA, THAT'S KINDA' WEIRD WHEN IT HAPPENS. EVERYTIME I SLEEP IN CLASS THEY'D GO: 'HAHA, YOU HAD A GREAT NAP HUH?' I NEVER SAW MYSELF SLEEPING SO I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I LOOK LIKE WHEN I DO :)
TIME FLIES AND SOMETIMES YOU GET A WAKEUP CALL TOO LATE TOO FIX THINGS. IT SUCKS WHEN THAT HAPPENS. I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR IT TO HAPPEN. TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE CURIOUS OF WHAT I AM LIKE CAUSE' BARELY ANYONE DOES EXCEPT ME AND GOD, WELL, THANK GOD, HAHA, IT FEELS LIKE A DEFENCE SYSTEM. ANYWAY, I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY THEY DON'T KNOW ME. SURE, THEY MIGHT KNOW MY FEELINGS IF I TELL THEM, ON WHO I AM CRUSHING ON THAT MONTH OR HOW MY BIRTHDAY WENT BUT I MEAN, PUH-LEASE! IF ANYONE DID KNOW ME I WOULDN'T BE WHAT I AM TODAY. HAHA, WHICH IS A MYSTERY.
I AM VERY VERY TIRED OF LIES THANK YOU
MY FAVE ACTRESSES. SINGING!!! HAHAH ENJOY :) I DID HAHAHA. IT'S KIND OF FUNNY ACTUALLY. IN A GOOD WAY.
RUNAWAYS INTERVIEW :)
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG HAHAHAHAH ECLIPSE TRAILER XDXDXD:
I AM LIKE, SO GAY RIGHT NOW. HAHAH. OH YEAH, THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED A WHILE AGO BUT WHATEVER. COMPLICATIONS COMPLICATIONS :PPPP HAHAHAHA
ENJOY! :)
Tuesday, March 2, 2010, 3/02/2010 11:26:00 PM
CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR~☆
I'm all for cute things in this world~☆ Hahah, does that make me a sweet girly girly kinda' girl? Haha, well, I AM GIRL ANYWAY. So today, I finally realized that inner beauty really rocks and rules so GIRLS BE KIND CAUSE' LOADS OUT THERE LACK OF IT! Not that I didn't know that anyway. I can't seem to get through this error error! thing, so alas, I am not logged into FB today though I am online. SORTA' DITCHED IT ANYWAY. BY BLOGGING AND CHECKING OUT OTHER BLOGS~☆! HAHAH! I am not so OBSESSED AND ADDICTED TO FACEBOOK LIKE OTHER PEOPLE ANYWAYS. Okay, at least not anymore. Hahah. So okay back to the title~☆
I love the way the people are into fashion fashion dresses. Um, the GREAT ONES, NOT WEIRD AND ALL THAT KIND. Like models, SUPER COOL + ATTRACTIVE = SUPER GORGEOUS + MORE ATTRACTIVE~☆
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Taken from ASIAN ADDICTION--->RULES BABE~☆! PROUD TO BE ASIAN!!!
LOL~☆. Anyways, I am still doind my B account heck how long have I not look at it. :) Nyways, I hope I can go online again so I can write some stuff. Due to lack of time, *SOBS* I therefore cannot fully update my blog. Next time peeps. :)
Friday, February 19, 2010, 2/19/2010 02:17:00 AM
Life
This is time my outlook for life has changed. Hahah, sorry for the absence my dear blog, as you know I have no time for you. Yeah I know sad. ANYWAYS, ONTO BUSINESS!!!
I wished we looked like this. Now and forever.
I am so bored of the people around me, thinking about you makes me cry. I would want to contact you, but it seems like there's a reason why chances are slipping away slyly all the time. Maybe this was meant to be.
Sure, I never actually hoped for us to be what I wanted, cause' maybe you were never the one I thought you were. I hope your aunt is okay. I hope she won't make you remember me. Or worse, FORGET ME.
I hope you are fine. We were never the closest, but I wished I had known you better.
I really missed you. I always will be.
I think I need this.
This false hope and dreams, to push me further into my life and future.
And maybe, slowly through time, we would forgive each other and be moving on, maybe you did, and I am still hanging onto nothing but I guess that's okay.
But I do like you I think.
A lot.
You were an inspiration to me.
How I would be in life, and all.
I did love you.
Thank you for being part of my life.
Thank you God for making me realize, life is so much more than what I thought before.
Alright, that's it. Off to bed. Cheers for today a new day. Off to Spring later. <3 :P
Saturday, August 22, 2009, 8/22/2009 12:36:00 PM
Life Almost Is As Empty, DAMNDAMNDAMN
HahaHA. How funny it is that every time I look up to the sky I feel so calm and collected but every time I lost a fight with myself I feel like I want to take it all away, and lock myself from the excruciating world I live in.
But, alas, I know, thought I was alone til' you came to me with a smile, sharing your deets about your life I couldn't help but to feel alright yet downright small. Like, a bird told me, my smallness affect myself more than anything.
Sometimes it makes me feel like I wanna die.
Sad.
I keep telling myself, I have to be my own person no matter what I think about you I have to be MY own person no matter what.
Shessh.
Why do I have to look up at you every time our eyes met, every time a friend says she loves looking at your famous adorable and cute face and your style. Every time you say you're silly and dumb yet you are the TOTAL OPPOSITE of what you say everyday.
You surely, have everything I had ever wanted but I always keep my head down. Now, knowing you are so damn precious to this world I feel horrible just saying "yes" with a smile when someone asked me, "Are you X best friend?"
I totally regret and smile at this memory.
After every time we had a fight, I cry like an idiot who lost the most important thing in the world, in my case, the most important person in the world. I KNOW. Fuck all this crap I decided to write. Fuck all this shit thoughts for even wanting to write a damn blog. I wanted to make one in the a few years ago, the reason I asked if anyone had a blog, but decided not to. Because I thought I was strong.
Strong enough I don't have to write my unimportant life journal on the Net for people to read or see or whatever, crap.
Every time I look at you, my tears within me feels like it's flooding out.
You know, that's why I cried that day.
Whatever.
Like you care, right?
You're famous and perfect - to some people, I don't know whether I'm in that category - an amzing friend, gorgeous, stylish, the STAR that brightens my sky when I want to...
Now, I know it's all lost and perished, like a star reaching the Earth, burnt into ashes.
I know you have a collection of people you can just call on speed-dial, say, "Hey, let's hang out" or go to amazing places where you'll meet amazing people like your friends from Aussie and all.
I know what you mean.
I mean, I feel so shitty right now.
Like a carbon copy of you.
I don't even know how I was before or I was just copying other friends from pri-school.
I guess I was wrong.
Maybe I AM not qualified as your friend.
Though whatever I think.
I know I still HAVE TO LIVE CAUSE' MY LIFE'S AIN'T OVER YET.
AND I DON'T THINK I WANT IT TO END LIKE I DID.
Right.
I'll just fade away from the world, right?
NO.
I don't want to.
Not anymore.
Yeah, right.
Never mind, crapcrapcrap.
Byedamnedblogofmine.
I.STILL.LOVE.YOU.EVEN.IF.ARE.TO.SAY.I.HATE.YOU.AND.NEVER.WANT.TO.SEE.MY.USELESS.TO.YOU.FACE.EVER.AGAIN.
But, alas, I know, thought I was alone til' you came to me with a smile, sharing your deets about your life I couldn't help but to feel alright yet downright small. Like, a bird told me, my smallness affect myself more than anything.
Sometimes it makes me feel like I wanna die.
Sad.
I keep telling myself, I have to be my own person no matter what I think about you I have to be MY own person no matter what.
Shessh.
Why do I have to look up at you every time our eyes met, every time a friend says she loves looking at your famous adorable and cute face and your style. Every time you say you're silly and dumb yet you are the TOTAL OPPOSITE of what you say everyday.
You surely, have everything I had ever wanted but I always keep my head down. Now, knowing you are so damn precious to this world I feel horrible just saying "yes" with a smile when someone asked me, "Are you X best friend?"
I totally regret and smile at this memory.
After every time we had a fight, I cry like an idiot who lost the most important thing in the world, in my case, the most important person in the world. I KNOW. Fuck all this crap I decided to write. Fuck all this shit thoughts for even wanting to write a damn blog. I wanted to make one in the a few years ago, the reason I asked if anyone had a blog, but decided not to. Because I thought I was strong.
Strong enough I don't have to write my unimportant life journal on the Net for people to read or see or whatever, crap.
Every time I look at you, my tears within me feels like it's flooding out.
You know, that's why I cried that day.
Whatever.
Like you care, right?
You're famous and perfect - to some people, I don't know whether I'm in that category - an amzing friend, gorgeous, stylish, the STAR that brightens my sky when I want to...
Now, I know it's all lost and perished, like a star reaching the Earth, burnt into ashes.
I know you have a collection of people you can just call on speed-dial, say, "Hey, let's hang out" or go to amazing places where you'll meet amazing people like your friends from Aussie and all.
I know what you mean.
I mean, I feel so shitty right now.
Like a carbon copy of you.
I don't even know how I was before or I was just copying other friends from pri-school.
I guess I was wrong.
Maybe I AM not qualified as your friend.
Though whatever I think.
I know I still HAVE TO LIVE CAUSE' MY LIFE'S AIN'T OVER YET.
AND I DON'T THINK I WANT IT TO END LIKE I DID.
Right.
I'll just fade away from the world, right?
NO.
I don't want to.
Not anymore.
Yeah, right.
Never mind, crapcrapcrap.
Byedamnedblogofmine.
I.STILL.LOVE.YOU.EVEN.IF.ARE.TO.SAY.I.HATE.YOU.AND.NEVER.WANT.TO.SEE.MY.USELESS.TO.YOU.FACE.EVER.AGAIN.